Okay guys, just came to request y'all to remember me in your prayers yeah :) Let's just say I really need 'em badly.
Updates later, hopefully!
Bye, love you all <3
Inaction.
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Tuesday, 15 February 2011
Wednesday, 5 January 2011
ICT exam update!
O hey! I forgot to update on how the horrible ICT exam to which I dedicated two whole posts went! :O
But well that was because of the fact that I had the even horrrible-r Chemistry exam the next day. And after the Chem exam I had sweet wonderful complete freedom for three weeks to come. So I was so caught up in the events that followed that I forgot all about telling you about how my exam went. Haha no I'm not under any delusions that people actually care, but I wanted to do it more for myself than for anyone else =p
Okay enough of the gibberish. I 'll tell you what I did - I screwed up. Worse than I had in yeears. Possibly the worst ever screw-up of my life.
The exam consisted of three sections, Microsoft FrontPage, Excel and PowerPoint. The latter being the easiest, I tackled it first. As I advanced, I found the exam mainly consisted of things I had not ever, ever even heard being mentioned in class. But I'm not what you'd call the most attentive child, so that's a pretty invalid argument. And the teacher said while rolling her eyes, "We did it a million times in class!" in her horrible accent, when I pointed this out to her. You need to learn how to count, miss. -_-
But then in the end everything turned out okay and I managed PP well.
Excel. I did about 25% of that section. It was kind of pretty much what I'd practiced at home. But the bloody formulae involved did not yield the required results WHATEVER I DID. I tried so many variations of the formula but NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING worked. I swear I tried a hell lot of things considering the time we had left. NOTHING I did would set it right. I swore (exaggeration, obviously. I did not) and left it with the hope that I'd find it somehow miraculously solved when I came back to it.
The third and last accursed program - FrontPage. Those of you who read my previous posts about the exam would know my ancient laptop (bless it) did not hold the gem of FrontPage. And by the looks of it, it had been discontinued by MS Office. I got hold of an MS FrontPage torrent, thanks to N. But it failed to download despite my trying about 7 times. So I'd properly given up hope.
Anyway, in the exam the FrontPage part gave me a heart attack. It was worse than I'd expected, and my expectations were very low to begin with. I had no clue whatsoever. I freaked out completely. I called out in Urdu (out of sheer desperation) to my friend who did know it. She was sitting a good distance away from me, and my call naturally attracted unwanted attention. But I did not give up hope. I pleaded with her to tell me SOMETHING atleast while she was on her way to get her printouts. She hurriedly told me stuff that went over my head. I tried to get started on it. But with the looming end-of-time-limit and my annoying classmate seated beside me (half of whose paper I had done earlier btw), I managed to do about 3% which went completely off-mark I'm sure. But I didn't hand in the paper blank.
And, yes you guessed it, there was no time to go back to Excel and fix it.
There were still about 10 minutes to go and extra time might have been given, but I chose to leave rather than sit in desperation and wait for divine intervention (as the prospect of human help coming was unthinkable under the teacher's watchful eye) that would somehow set everything straight. So with a horrible sickening feeling in my stomach, I gathered my printouts, saved my work, handed it in, cursed ICT under my breath and left the lab.
I went downstairs and met those who'd left earlier. All of them had similar feelings so we consoled each other and the disaster was suddenly forgotten (for the time being) in a couple of laughs. I love my friends at such occasions.
Fast-forward to result day:
When I saw my result sheet, I saw a 79 in ICT. Damn ONE MORE MARK AND I COULD HAVE GOT AN "A". Atleast I didn't fail. But the grudge for the teacher strengthened in me and I resolved to work harder to improve at ICT. I just hope it lasts longer than my new year resolutions.
I got 3% less overall than dear N who came first. Because of dear ICT my % plummeted. She scored a whopping 92% in it and that made all the difference.
Byebye *Insert Furree Katt style heart*
But well that was because of the fact that I had the even horrrible-r Chemistry exam the next day. And after the Chem exam I had sweet wonderful complete freedom for three weeks to come. So I was so caught up in the events that followed that I forgot all about telling you about how my exam went. Haha no I'm not under any delusions that people actually care, but I wanted to do it more for myself than for anyone else =p
Okay enough of the gibberish. I 'll tell you what I did - I screwed up. Worse than I had in yeears. Possibly the worst ever screw-up of my life.
The exam consisted of three sections, Microsoft FrontPage, Excel and PowerPoint. The latter being the easiest, I tackled it first. As I advanced, I found the exam mainly consisted of things I had not ever, ever even heard being mentioned in class. But I'm not what you'd call the most attentive child, so that's a pretty invalid argument. And the teacher said while rolling her eyes, "We did it a million times in class!" in her horrible accent, when I pointed this out to her. You need to learn how to count, miss. -_-
But then in the end everything turned out okay and I managed PP well.
Excel. I did about 25% of that section. It was kind of pretty much what I'd practiced at home. But the bloody formulae involved did not yield the required results WHATEVER I DID. I tried so many variations of the formula but NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING worked. I swear I tried a hell lot of things considering the time we had left. NOTHING I did would set it right. I swore (exaggeration, obviously. I did not) and left it with the hope that I'd find it somehow miraculously solved when I came back to it.
The third and last accursed program - FrontPage. Those of you who read my previous posts about the exam would know my ancient laptop (bless it) did not hold the gem of FrontPage. And by the looks of it, it had been discontinued by MS Office. I got hold of an MS FrontPage torrent, thanks to N. But it failed to download despite my trying about 7 times. So I'd properly given up hope.
Anyway, in the exam the FrontPage part gave me a heart attack. It was worse than I'd expected, and my expectations were very low to begin with. I had no clue whatsoever. I freaked out completely. I called out in Urdu (out of sheer desperation) to my friend who did know it. She was sitting a good distance away from me, and my call naturally attracted unwanted attention. But I did not give up hope. I pleaded with her to tell me SOMETHING atleast while she was on her way to get her printouts. She hurriedly told me stuff that went over my head. I tried to get started on it. But with the looming end-of-time-limit and my annoying classmate seated beside me (half of whose paper I had done earlier btw), I managed to do about 3% which went completely off-mark I'm sure. But I didn't hand in the paper blank.
And, yes you guessed it, there was no time to go back to Excel and fix it.
There were still about 10 minutes to go and extra time might have been given, but I chose to leave rather than sit in desperation and wait for divine intervention (as the prospect of human help coming was unthinkable under the teacher's watchful eye) that would somehow set everything straight. So with a horrible sickening feeling in my stomach, I gathered my printouts, saved my work, handed it in, cursed ICT under my breath and left the lab.
I went downstairs and met those who'd left earlier. All of them had similar feelings so we consoled each other and the disaster was suddenly forgotten (for the time being) in a couple of laughs. I love my friends at such occasions.
Fast-forward to result day:
When I saw my result sheet, I saw a 79 in ICT. Damn ONE MORE MARK AND I COULD HAVE GOT AN "A". Atleast I didn't fail. But the grudge for the teacher strengthened in me and I resolved to work harder to improve at ICT. I just hope it lasts longer than my new year resolutions.
I got 3% less overall than dear N who came first. Because of dear ICT my % plummeted. She scored a whopping 92% in it and that made all the difference.
Byebye *Insert Furree Katt style heart*
Sunday, 2 January 2011
New heights my anger has reached
You make me feel like I'm an exceptionally intelligent person, owing to the stupid silly mistakes you dumbly make. You make me fume, you do. It's not your fault, maybe not. But you make me want to bang my head against a solid concrete wall. WHY do you have to act so bloody DUMB. Why do you act as an insult to your age. If you really are that stupid, at least take the trouble to just make yourself look less stupid. Or do you do this on purpose? Your purpose being - 'to annoy the living hell out of me'? It's not cool, trust me. And ask anyone out there, I'm sure they will agree. It's not cool. Halt, in the name of God, halt.
Okay. Vented out the anger. Feel better. -deep breaths-
On a different note, I'm thinking to delete this blog and start over. New profile and all. Or maybe just a new blog, with the same profile. Or maybe just continue with this blog after a careful cleanup of it. Or maybe a new URL / title for this existing blog.
All these ideas have been continuously running through my mind. I don't want to make a hurried decision and regret it late. It's my blog, after all. And serious business, a blog is.
Oh and btw, my life has started revolving around those little red numbers near the top left of your Facebook page. (Poor description, I know.)
Yes, notifications.
The sad life I lead needs a change, pronto.
Tata. More later.
Okay. Vented out the anger. Feel better. -deep breaths-
On a different note, I'm thinking to delete this blog and start over. New profile and all. Or maybe just a new blog, with the same profile. Or maybe just continue with this blog after a careful cleanup of it. Or maybe a new URL / title for this existing blog.
All these ideas have been continuously running through my mind. I don't want to make a hurried decision and regret it late. It's my blog, after all. And serious business, a blog is.
Oh and btw, my life has started revolving around those little red numbers near the top left of your Facebook page. (Poor description, I know.)
Yes, notifications.
The sad life I lead needs a change, pronto.
Tata. More later.
Saturday, 1 January 2011
The cheenkain won't go away
I am a die-hard fan of Harry Potter. I love the series to bits. I'd give anything for the entire HP-world to be actual and not just a figment of JKR's amazingly vivid imagination.And to be a proper part of it obviously, if it did exist. I'd hate to view it from a Squib's/ werewolf's POV. Being a Death Eater, for instance, would be fun. (6)
I don't have crushes.
I'm obsessed with looking good, and lack the patience required to work towards this objective.
I stress my eyes wayy too much.
I'm really really really lazy. I hate work. I hate work. I hate work. Work very rarely interests me, instead it fascinates me. I can sit and look at it for hours on end. No exaggeration.
I have the inability to actually stick to my ambitious plans. For example, I will , suddenly - entirely out of the blue, be overcome with the wish to lose weight, formulate a diet plan and resolve to stick to it until the desired results are achieved. The whole plan will collapse upon sensing the delicious smell of chips frying and my passion to lose weight will evaporate.
I love walking alone aimlessly, staring into space and thinking about when my life will leave its present depressed state and transform into my ideal one.
Okay, I know those were lame. But I'm feeling a lot less creative than usual, owing to the big disappointment yesterday.
Now the 7 people I give the award to:
Furree Katt, awesome writer. My new favourite blog. The effort she puts into her posts and the way she makes the content so inviting is commendable. Gob bless you :D
The Me, one of the blogs I await posts hungrily from (screwed up grammar? idc right now), very interesting and fun-to-read. Oh and her Paint skills are awesome. Btw, I learned the spelling of the Psych in Psych Rant after several attempts :P
Mehreen Kasana - possesses yappin' writing (and Paint) skills. The besttt in my opinion.
fatima - cuz she's the sweetest and cutest blogger, and happens to be my sister :D And also because I'm mentioned in her blog :D
Cloud Khizzy, fun and interesting style of writing, keeps the reader hooked
Stylish Muslimah, lovee the blog. Very creative ideas for how to don Islamic clothing and look stylish and trendy in it.
Maryam Reza - cuz she's purely awesome and is one of the writers I aspire to be. And she's the reason this blog exists. =D
PS: I don't like how the title has nothing to do with the post.
Sunday, 19 December 2010
It is time.
It's 12:00. (Right now it is, by the time I publish God-knows how much later it'll be)
So basically it's 19-Dec-2010. The whole of UAE is either snoring comfortably or chilling out and enjoying the holiday season. For us it is the dreaded date - ICT Paper 3. And almost all of us 10s are trying hard to stay awake and practice as much as possible and pass tomorrow. Most of us are online and calling each other up to clear up confusions, or asking how much is left/covered. I'm still stuck on trying to practice Frontpage. I've been slightly successful as get hold of it I did, but the download is a massive one and I don't know if the rest of the plan will work and if I'll actually manage to practice sufficiently along with catching a few hours' sleep.
So my point is basically to pass time. While the download goes on, instead of revising MS Excel formulas(e?) or honing my PowerPoint skills (ignore), I'm here preparing the next treat for my blog readers.
I can't believe how brutally I wasted this weekend. Thursday was 10 Muharram so no parhai on that day. Friday I got up at about 12:30, pushed my sleepy lazy self out of bed at 1, had breakfast at 1:30, stuck to the laptop at 2, checked Facebook, searched for skin remedies/ exercises/ crash diet plans/ other useless shit and did every other imaginable useless task. I kept reminding myself of the exam but hah did you expect me to listen to the boring reminding voice. So, yeah, I wasted the whole of Friday.
Saturday - pretty much the same routine till 2. Then I got serious and phoned three friends and asked them how much they'd done. First one - the loser was asleep. Second - "tumhay lagta hai maine shuru kia hoga?". Third - "haan yar soch rahi thi shuru karun lekin abhi tou so ke uthi hun". And I was like WOW. Ye tou mere se bhi do hath agay hain. Kher, I started with something atleast.... and gave up 10 min later. Went for a sauna bath and had a long shower after that. Half of the day wasted - just the cue for me to start studying. At 6 I properly started. And believe me, the first 5 questions in the paper took me TWO hours. TWO hours. But I Godknowshow completed that section. So I was done with two sections (having done another one earlier sometime). One left. But no program on which it was to be done. But a friend got in contact with the IT genius in our class and he told her how to get hold of FrontPage. I was ecstatic at finally being able to practice FrontPage but there was a measly little problem. It's midnight and the download would take two hours. And I would need another two hours to practice. Which would deprive me of my precious beauty sleep. But oh well, no pain, no gain. So here I am, blogging while the download completes. No prospect of it being completed before one hour btw.
Erm. I just read the post. Jokes apart, it doesn't make sense to me. So it doesn't really have to make sense to you haha. But I'll post it all the same. My blog, after all.
Btw, The Me, fatima-, Maryam & Furree Katt thankyou people for commenting :D
+ Maryam awesome hai aap, maaloom hai apko? <3
Pray for me y'all. Byebye.
PS:50% hogya download. Abhi aik aur ghanta baqi hai. -_-
So basically it's 19-Dec-2010. The whole of UAE is either snoring comfortably or chilling out and enjoying the holiday season. For us it is the dreaded date - ICT Paper 3. And almost all of us 10s are trying hard to stay awake and practice as much as possible and pass tomorrow. Most of us are online and calling each other up to clear up confusions, or asking how much is left/covered. I'm still stuck on trying to practice Frontpage. I've been slightly successful as get hold of it I did, but the download is a massive one and I don't know if the rest of the plan will work and if I'll actually manage to practice sufficiently along with catching a few hours' sleep.
So my point is basically to pass time. While the download goes on, instead of revising MS Excel formulas(e?) or honing my PowerPoint skills (ignore), I'm here preparing the next treat for my blog readers.
I can't believe how brutally I wasted this weekend. Thursday was 10 Muharram so no parhai on that day. Friday I got up at about 12:30, pushed my sleepy lazy self out of bed at 1, had breakfast at 1:30, stuck to the laptop at 2, checked Facebook, searched for skin remedies/ exercises/ crash diet plans/ other useless shit and did every other imaginable useless task. I kept reminding myself of the exam but hah did you expect me to listen to the boring reminding voice. So, yeah, I wasted the whole of Friday.
Saturday - pretty much the same routine till 2. Then I got serious and phoned three friends and asked them how much they'd done. First one - the loser was asleep. Second - "tumhay lagta hai maine shuru kia hoga?". Third - "haan yar soch rahi thi shuru karun lekin abhi tou so ke uthi hun". And I was like WOW. Ye tou mere se bhi do hath agay hain. Kher, I started with something atleast.... and gave up 10 min later. Went for a sauna bath and had a long shower after that. Half of the day wasted - just the cue for me to start studying. At 6 I properly started. And believe me, the first 5 questions in the paper took me TWO hours. TWO hours. But I Godknowshow completed that section. So I was done with two sections (having done another one earlier sometime). One left. But no program on which it was to be done. But a friend got in contact with the IT genius in our class and he told her how to get hold of FrontPage. I was ecstatic at finally being able to practice FrontPage but there was a measly little problem. It's midnight and the download would take two hours. And I would need another two hours to practice. Which would deprive me of my precious beauty sleep. But oh well, no pain, no gain. So here I am, blogging while the download completes. No prospect of it being completed before one hour btw.
Erm. I just read the post. Jokes apart, it doesn't make sense to me. So it doesn't really have to make sense to you haha. But I'll post it all the same. My blog, after all.
Btw, The Me, fatima-, Maryam & Furree Katt thankyou people for commenting :D
+ Maryam awesome hai aap, maaloom hai apko? <3
Pray for me y'all. Byebye.
PS:50% hogya download. Abhi aik aur ghanta baqi hai. -_-
Saturday, 18 December 2010
Second post in under 3 hours, IMPROVEMENT!
I present, fellow bloggers, -insert drumroll please- my second blog post in under 3 hours, for the first time ever in the one year history of My Pensieve! -applause-
Okay sorry, but I loove to exaggerate.
So I went to study. I opened a past paper. I skipped the first question (that spans about 2 whole pages of the paper) because it was to be done in MS Frontpage and we all know I don't have it, so let's not rub it in. Okay, next question. PowerPoint. I proceeded with the first step - took15 minutes to be solved because I used so many means (excluding my sleepy brain) at once to try and get it done. Asked a senior on FB chat how she got it done in her exam, tried different Google searches, clicked on random results, skimmed through many and finally one told me how you open/create/whatever a master slide/ slide master/ whatever.
Did the first step. Congratulated myself. Proceeded to next. Bloody hell, WHEN DID SHE EVER TEACH US THAT?, I thought. And then out came the curses and rants about how the incompetent teacher could ever have set us such an exam when she knowwws we're not not not prepared - and it's not our fault, the entire school management knows it, the teacher is the masla. And sadly, nothing can be done about it because, according to our academic co-ordinator, despite looking for a replacement none has been found because whoever is better than the present one is already well-placed and well-paid. So we make do with the one we have.
This might not even make sense to you, but you get the idea haina.
I want to blog about this thingg on my mind. But for (obvious?) reasons I can't/won't/whatever. But soon IA I will - using the 'show, don't tell' tactic maybe. Or using a new scheme half-formed in my mind. InshaAllah soon.
Okay so however hard I try, I can't keep the bloody ICT mock exam out of my mind. There is a serious serious problem. There are three programs/applications I need to master by Sunday in order to get a decent grade. The first part of problem: One of the three isn't in my computer, the second one I know only the basics of, but sadly the basics are not even included in the exam - it's all about the bloody technical stuff, the third one has loads and loads of complications, I'm sure of it - but I'm just feeling confident about it cbecause I haven't really explored it properly. The second part: There is no teacher available. everyone in the family is just as familiar with the technical shit as I am. The third part: I have no clue how to deal with it. Obviously nothing would come of writing long useless blog posts but THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT.
And the exaggeration in the above is minimal, trust me.
So Imma go worry about it some more, wall-post friends and hope for a solution to be there in the morning.
Bye-bye y'all. Pray for me.
Okay sorry, but I loove to exaggerate.
So I went to study. I opened a past paper. I skipped the first question (that spans about 2 whole pages of the paper) because it was to be done in MS Frontpage and we all know I don't have it, so let's not rub it in. Okay, next question. PowerPoint. I proceeded with the first step - took15 minutes to be solved because I used so many means (excluding my sleepy brain) at once to try and get it done. Asked a senior on FB chat how she got it done in her exam, tried different Google searches, clicked on random results, skimmed through many and finally one told me how you open/create/whatever a master slide/ slide master/ whatever.
Did the first step. Congratulated myself. Proceeded to next. Bloody hell, WHEN DID SHE EVER TEACH US THAT?, I thought. And then out came the curses and rants about how the incompetent teacher could ever have set us such an exam when she knowwws we're not not not prepared - and it's not our fault, the entire school management knows it, the teacher is the masla. And sadly, nothing can be done about it because, according to our academic co-ordinator, despite looking for a replacement none has been found because whoever is better than the present one is already well-placed and well-paid. So we make do with the one we have.
This might not even make sense to you, but you get the idea haina.
I want to blog about this thingg on my mind. But for (obvious?) reasons I can't/won't/whatever. But soon IA I will - using the 'show, don't tell' tactic maybe. Or using a new scheme half-formed in my mind. InshaAllah soon.
Okay so however hard I try, I can't keep the bloody ICT mock exam out of my mind. There is a serious serious problem. There are three programs/applications I need to master by Sunday in order to get a decent grade. The first part of problem: One of the three isn't in my computer, the second one I know only the basics of, but sadly the basics are not even included in the exam - it's all about the bloody technical stuff, the third one has loads and loads of complications, I'm sure of it - but I'm just feeling confident about it cbecause I haven't really explored it properly. The second part: There is no teacher available. everyone in the family is just as familiar with the technical shit as I am. The third part: I have no clue how to deal with it. Obviously nothing would come of writing long useless blog posts but THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT.
And the exaggeration in the above is minimal, trust me.
So Imma go worry about it some more, wall-post friends and hope for a solution to be there in the morning.
Bye-bye y'all. Pray for me.
Friday, 17 December 2010
The dormant blogger in me has awoken - Rejoice!
Hello people :D
So I was reminded that the blog I very enthusiastically created last year exists to this day and is available for viewing to the world by a visit to my Hotmail account earlier today. I check the account not very often because Facebook ke ilawa koi mail nai karta mujhay. But I had some work to do so I went to Hotmail, did what I was supposed to without even glancing at the countless unread emails, the majority of which were sent by loser Facebook WHEN I NOTICED SOMETHING. Something that looked like 'Furree Katt'. Upon paying closer attention I found out that this wonderful wonderful blogger had left a comment on latest (3month-old) post. I was so ecstatic that I forgot all about the highly-important-natured work I had and became intent on what the comment asked me to do, which was basically: blog.
Okay enough of that.
So I have been very very busy. Not that being free made any difference to my frequency of blogging. So that isn't much of an excuse. But what the heck, who cares about why I don't blog. Right now, by the way, I should be preparing for the bloody IT exam. But I have just made an unpleasant discovery - I don't have the programs required for practicing for the exam on my ancient laptop. Big big masla. But I'll worry about it later. Sunday ko hai exam. Abhi time hai.
Result out on 23rd. Please please pray for me. I need to get what I aimed for or else I eventually sink into a massive depressed state and that will ruin ruin ruin all the plans for the 2 week winter break.
The highly-important-natured work is no longer resting at the back of my mind where I pushed it to and prioritized blogging. My conscience is repeatedly nagging me to start with the massive amount of work I have to get done this weekend, half of which has already sailed past.
Bye bye. More rants later. Oh yes, more of them coming. :D
PS: COMMENT PEOPLE, FOR GOODNESS'S SAKE, COMMENT. Those heavenly words are one of the few things that I look forward to in my monotonous life.
Ignore the last bit.
So I was reminded that the blog I very enthusiastically created last year exists to this day and is available for viewing to the world by a visit to my Hotmail account earlier today. I check the account not very often because Facebook ke ilawa koi mail nai karta mujhay. But I had some work to do so I went to Hotmail, did what I was supposed to without even glancing at the countless unread emails, the majority of which were sent by loser Facebook WHEN I NOTICED SOMETHING. Something that looked like 'Furree Katt'. Upon paying closer attention I found out that this wonderful wonderful blogger had left a comment on latest (3month-old) post. I was so ecstatic that I forgot all about the highly-important-natured work I had and became intent on what the comment asked me to do, which was basically: blog.
Okay enough of that.
So I have been very very busy. Not that being free made any difference to my frequency of blogging. So that isn't much of an excuse. But what the heck, who cares about why I don't blog. Right now, by the way, I should be preparing for the bloody IT exam. But I have just made an unpleasant discovery - I don't have the programs required for practicing for the exam on my ancient laptop. Big big masla. But I'll worry about it later. Sunday ko hai exam. Abhi time hai.
Result out on 23rd. Please please pray for me. I need to get what I aimed for or else I eventually sink into a massive depressed state and that will ruin ruin ruin all the plans for the 2 week winter break.
The highly-important-natured work is no longer resting at the back of my mind where I pushed it to and prioritized blogging. My conscience is repeatedly nagging me to start with the massive amount of work I have to get done this weekend, half of which has already sailed past.
Bye bye. More rants later. Oh yes, more of them coming. :D
PS: COMMENT PEOPLE, FOR GOODNESS'S SAKE, COMMENT. Those heavenly words are one of the few things that I look forward to in my monotonous life.
Ignore the last bit.
